Gay Signals Have Nothing to Do With Straight Signals
Song of the moment: 2046 Main Theme (With Percussion) by Shigeru Umebayashi
This is the first job I’ve ever had where I worry about being let go for being too efficient. You heard me. In the mere week I’ve worked at the lab, we’ve gone from being barely scraping by on production/packaging to being two weeks ahead. And that gap widens everyday. My supervisor has told me, only half-jokingly, that I need to slow down, that we need to work quickly, but not that quickly.
I put stickers on boxes. Occasionally, I actually build the boxes. This job is not rocket science. I have to work my ass off in order to keep my mind occupied. Otherwise, I’d probably kill my insipid coworkers.
Today, however, there was a breakthrough. Or something. I think they finally realized they wouldn’t be able to make me less efficient, so I’m getting promoted. I guess hard-work and being irritating really pays off. Despite how sarcastic I sound, this is actually pretty exciting news. Because it means I’ll spend the end of this week or beginning of next in training (okay, that part is not exciting in the slightest), and then I’ll get to move into the filling aspect of packaging. Which means I’ll get to wear a lab coat.
I’m like a giddy little child. Yay for science!
Anyway, if you get a chance, I recommend the movie Holding Trevor. It’s about a gay couple, Trevor and Darrell. Darrell is a junkie, and the movie begins with Trevor taking him to the hospital. While there, Trevor meets Ephram, a ridiculously good-looking doctor. The two eventually begin a relationship, a much healthier one than Trevor’s relationship with Darrell. Add to this Andie, Trevor’s roomie, and Jake, his best friend, both of whom are slowly slipping away from Trevor. That is, until Andie finds out she’s HIV positive, forcing Trevor to find himself and make a tough choice.
It’s a sweet little movie. Jay Brannan is in it as Jake, Trevor’s smartass best friend. Holy balls, I’m absolutely in love with that man. Why am I not a gay man? My life would be so much simpler, I think. At least I’d have a damn boyfriend at this point. I’m always managing to attract or become attracted to gay men. *sigh*
Yes, that just happened recently. I was so pissed. I think my gaydar is broken. FUCK.
On the subject of relationships, I think the advice in He’s Just Not That Into You is pretty sound:
Sometimes we’re so focused on finding our happy ending we don’t learn how to read the signs. How to tell from the ones who want us and the ones who don’t, the ones who will stay and the ones who will leave. And maybe a happy ending doesn’t include a guy, maybe… it’s you, on your own, picking up the pieces and starting over, freeing yourself up for something better in the future. Maybe the happy ending is… just… moving on. Or maybe the happy ending is this, knowing after all the unreturned phone calls, broken-hearts, through the blunders and misread signals, through all the pain and embarrassment you never gave up hope.
Now if I could only learn to follow said advice, maybe things wouldn’t be so damn foggy and confused for me.
Also, check out the soundtrack to 2046. It’s fantastic.
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